Oh my gosh, today was so much fun! I loved it. I got to go hang out with Justin and Ben to go for a walk to Gateway and then we went back and got to hang with a bunch of my other friends (including Lucas). I would love to hang with these guys more often. I'm sad that I just started hanging with them at the end of the year. I wish I could hang with them. Maybe this summer! We could have like a cookout or something at Jester Park or somewhere else like that. It would be awesome.

We might actually get to go to Cici's after the varsity game tonight. There's this dude though that really needs to back off. He keeps touching me and begging me to go out with him and I don't want to lead him on but I dont want to hurt him. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to end up doing. Finals week is coming up really fast. It's kinda scary, to tell you the truth. We went to Mr. Hepburn's chemistry demo thing today. It was really fun. I think it was his birthday as well but I forgot to tell him happy birthday. It's Tricia's birthday tomorrow. :D I gave her a cow thats tag said "Hi, I'm a penguin and I love hugs and smiles." She loved it. She's obsessed with penguins so I thought it would be kinda different. I'm hoping to go shopping this weekend. My m0m claims she won't let me get anymore bikini's but I don't believe her. I kinda want to go shopping for a dress. Idk why, I just love dress shopping. Multimedia is really boring. We're supposed to be making these podcast things about some random junk and I'm not sure what I'll do mine on. I'll probably just read my flog entries. That should work. If you haven't read it, you should check it out. Unfortunately, though, I'm not all caught up yet. I really need to work on it, but I kinda want to make it a book and just write it over the summer. Who knows... So my ex-boyfriend and I are friends again. I wonder how l0ng that is going to last. We always end up fighting over something and then hating each other for, like, ever. I'm hoping we can hang out sometime this summer. It would be nice to be friends with him again. The only bad thing about hanging with him is the fact that he's so small. He is REALLY skinny and it's kinda tough not feeling inferior or like crap when he is around because I'm so much bigger than him. I'm not saying I'm fat or anything, but I just don't like being the biggest of my friends. Things are going great with Vikki and Zach. I love hearing about all the stuff they do together. :P Not. I saw her SUV in their driveway while riding the bus home yesterday. I wonder what she was doing there so close to gametime... ;) I'm pretty bored so I'll end this post here.

What happens if you get scared half to death twice???

Last soccer game tonight... I doubt I'll even get to play though. I suck. That, and coach hates me. So life is going absolutely horribly. I'm an idiot and I need to get over all this stupid stuff. NO GUYS. At all. Seriously. Or at least not until I'm 16. I'm tired of all this crap that comes with them. And lately, some people have pointed out how much I suck at life. Some have told me to go die but I don't think I'll do anything that drastic. How's life? Mine's not that great but that doesn't matter. Someone wise told me that I should never let myself cry and that I should always smile. That is what I'm planning on doing. All smiles, no tears. As soon as other people start believing it, maybe I will too. At least, that's what I'm hoping.

I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiled; the one who could always brighten your day, even if she couldnt brighten her own.